I often wonder why things happen in our lives...and yes, I know everything happens for a reason. But when things go south because of a misunderstanding, I was always taught to believe that adults can talk things out and work it out. I now realize that requires TWO adults wanting to work it out. Maybe by circumstance or situations, one person is too occupied to realize that the other is hurting. Maybe it is because one person refuses to see the other is trying to reconcile and mend the matter. Or maybe the relationship just was not as important to one person as they once thought...maybe they do not have time for it any longer. Whatever the reason...it just plain sucks. I always believed in being honest and accounting for your actions...saying "I'm sorry" when you were wrong and trying to make right the wrong. I guess there are some that do not take "I'm sorry" with as much value as I do.

There was so much I was looking forward to in moving to the NW and also so much that I feared. I tried my best to make the best of every situation and circumstance thrown in my path...but my fears won out anyway. I guess it is life's way of reminding us that nothing lasts forever. So I guess I must now focus on the future and not on what I wanted in my future...time to punt and re-plan.

Some losses are so much worse than others but nothing matches the loss of a sister and best friend. This is a heartache that will take a very long time to mend...if it ever does.